A friend and member of the community was in a motorcycle accident this last Friday and due to injuries suffered from the accident he has had to have his left leg amputated from the knee down. Many of us have spent time crying and emoting over this, myself included, although my tears are not of sadness for his 'fate', but rather a releasing of the appreciation and happiness I have for this community who care for and hold one another through our struggles.
We are often assholes to each other, as family often are, but when it comes time to step up and be there many of us are able to be present.
I've been extremely sensitive to everything lately, energy and emotions, loud noises, excited people, large crowds...This has exacerbated my emotions about Charlie's accident and I can't handle hearing about him without crying, even though all of the reports are that he's doing well and in good spirits. Everything just feels a million times more intense to me right now and I'm remaining open to it and accepting it without judgement. Just observing and embracing it as a part of me. I also have incredible managers and co-workers who have held space and made arrangements for me to have the day off.
This all started last Monday when I woke up feeling like all of my energy channels were wide open and I was exhausted immediately upon waking up. I was exhausted the next day, and the third day I was incredibly sensitive to everything to the point where I could barely function. It has gotten more then less intense in various waves, depending on the hour and day and events. Today is a huge day of processing. I'm going to go to Tai Chi sword class later, make a card to send to Charlie at the hospital, do some intense journaling and processing, energy work, and relaxing. I don't think any of this would be available to me outside of here. I would have to have the balls to take it myself.
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